Will I continue acting now?
I had an interesting shift around one of my lifelong passions, which is acting. I've been a natural actor and ham since a very early age. While teaching acting classes, I discovered that part of what drew me to acting was that it allowed me to safely be someone else, live in a different world without repercussion in this one, explore different realities.
That still feels good to me, to think of playing with reality in that way. However, when I decided not to audition for a good role recently, I had a shift about the whole industry and the energy around it. We are basically telling stories. Judging from what is out there, we are mainly telling stories about hard times, challenges, abuse, violence, fearful situations and dangerous times. Somehow, when I looked at this role (it was for a movie about child abuse and I know a little something about that incest and abuse) I suddenly saw that doing it would be perpetuating a story I no longer believe in perpetuating.
So, then the question is, how do we shift the patterns of abuse on the planet if nobody calls attention to them thru their story? I don't know. Yet, I'm feeling there is a way. I'm feeling there is a way that is calling to me, to shift myself away from the stories of my past and into a moment of NOW that embodies the healed perspective without the story.
I'm noticing this shift around story in other areas of my life as well, and blogged about that this morning: Who am I without my stories?
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