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The Dream: I am in a room with Dr. Phil.
I'm looking at a computer screen, where I see a lot of cd's that he has created. I suddenly realize I could ask him to energize one of them for me, while I'm there with him so I ask.
I turn back to the screen and pick one with a girl on it but somehow end up with a cd with a boy on the cover. I realize that's not the one I wanted and try to choose again.
The second cd has an actress on it, about my age, and another actress who appears to be the mother of the first actress.
I choose a third time, still trying to get the girl, and end up with a boy on the cover again.
My take on the dream so far:
When I have dreams with celebrities, unless they play a character from a film or tv show they've done, I always ask myself what I think of them as people. I think Dr. Phil is sometimes confrontive, macho and controlling. I also think he is judgmental where I feel there should be neutrality at times.......
The hard part is all the Dr. Phil I see in me. That hard, rather redneck edge. And instead of getting the cd with the little girl, I kept getting a boy, the masculine.
The second cd has special significance due to an experience I had years ago and also due to the fact that I am an actress in real life.
Years ago, in a guided meditation, I saw two aspects of myself, the woman and the crone, in a very vivid way. In some way, this cd reminded me of that experience.
It also reminded me of my relationship with my own mother and of course, of my acting, so it was loaded.
What I liked was that both the first woman and her "mother" were actors. I remember hearing something Bill Harris said on the Centerpointe tapes, which I use. It had to do with remembering that our experience on this earth was not who we truly are but just one role we are playing.
Bill compared it to acting on a stage. He said (and I'm paraphrasing) if a person on stage was playing Hamlet and thought it was real, it would be a horrible experience. The actor knows it's just a play and so he has a great time even though it's intense and emotions are real.
I think the second cd was reminding me that myself and my mother had agreement to be together here, to play out certain experiences, but that believing I was responsible for her life would be like the actor forgetting he was in a play. And believing that whatever happens here is some kind of tragedy, is like forgetting that our souls are eternal and this life is just a blip on the radar of our path.
Choosing Dr. Phil to "energize" my cd meant that I'm out of balance with the masculine. Either I don't have enough or I have too much. I think, looking at my own Dr. Phil tendencies of controlling, judgment and agression of expression, it may be the latter.
In any case, the dream points to balancing my male and female aspects and also, remembering the big picture of this existence more than the little picture in front of me.
Note: This dream is in stark contrast to one I had earlier, where I had a loving intimate male relationship but it may be pointing to the same issue.
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Monday, June 26, 2006
Dreams about Celebrities: Dreams about John Gielgud
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I haven't been remembering my dreams a lot lately. I had a long, involved and very unpleasant dream the other night but can only remember a snippet.
Dream Snippet: I am going up some steep stairs when I hear footsteps behind me. It is John Gielgud. He is his current age and I, in the dream, seem to be younger and physically stronger than my current age. Therefore, I am very surprised to hear John gaining on me. His steps are determined and fast. In this dream, John is set on evil intent. I suddenly realize he will catch me.
After that, I only vaguely remember reaching the top of the stairs and being thrust into a very dangerous and scary situation with some hostage elements. I don't think I was the primary hostage but arriving when I did, got me involved.
My take on the snippet so far: I typically consider scary dreams or challenging dreams to be very important on a spiritual level, and always good. Always a sign that something of importance is surfacing, something important enough to effect my ego-self and generate fear.
I am grateful I was going up the stairs and not going down them. The upward motion indicates striving toward a new level of dealing with something, in my personal dream awareness, so it's a good sign that I'm moving forward with something.
Whenever I have dreams about celebrities, I ask my inner self whether they are appearing in the dream as a person or a character. Then, I look at what I think of them as people or what I feel about any character they have played that is then represented in my dream.
In this dream, John is there as a character. Basically, he is the butler from Arthur. In that film, he had little patience for the pettiness of his royal charge. He didn't cut Arthur any slack. I think his purpose in this dream is the same for me. He was behind me and determined to follow
me up those stairs and into whatever I needed to work through on the next level.
I don't remember seeing John again after reaching the top of the stairs. There was another man there, with a gun or knife, and a woman being held hostage. She was terrified.
At this point, I can't recall the other man.....not quite ready to deal with what I've found at the upper level of my consciousness but at least I made it to the top of the stairs and began to have the experience of what my subconscious wanted to show me. I take that as a positive sign.
I haven't been remembering my dreams a lot lately. I had a long, involved and very unpleasant dream the other night but can only remember a snippet.
Dream Snippet: I am going up some steep stairs when I hear footsteps behind me. It is John Gielgud. He is his current age and I, in the dream, seem to be younger and physically stronger than my current age. Therefore, I am very surprised to hear John gaining on me. His steps are determined and fast. In this dream, John is set on evil intent. I suddenly realize he will catch me.
After that, I only vaguely remember reaching the top of the stairs and being thrust into a very dangerous and scary situation with some hostage elements. I don't think I was the primary hostage but arriving when I did, got me involved.
My take on the snippet so far: I typically consider scary dreams or challenging dreams to be very important on a spiritual level, and always good. Always a sign that something of importance is surfacing, something important enough to effect my ego-self and generate fear.
I am grateful I was going up the stairs and not going down them. The upward motion indicates striving toward a new level of dealing with something, in my personal dream awareness, so it's a good sign that I'm moving forward with something.
Whenever I have dreams about celebrities, I ask my inner self whether they are appearing in the dream as a person or a character. Then, I look at what I think of them as people or what I feel about any character they have played that is then represented in my dream.
In this dream, John is there as a character. Basically, he is the butler from Arthur. In that film, he had little patience for the pettiness of his royal charge. He didn't cut Arthur any slack. I think his purpose in this dream is the same for me. He was behind me and determined to follow
me up those stairs and into whatever I needed to work through on the next level.
I don't remember seeing John again after reaching the top of the stairs. There was another man there, with a gun or knife, and a woman being held hostage. She was terrified.
At this point, I can't recall the other man.....not quite ready to deal with what I've found at the upper level of my consciousness but at least I made it to the top of the stairs and began to have the experience of what my subconscious wanted to show me. I take that as a positive sign.
Thursday, May 25, 2006
Dreams about Celebrities: Dreams about Clint Eastwood
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The Dream:
I can't recall much at all but I'm in a mobile home with Clint Eastwood. He is telling me that we never got together because of timing. I wasn't sure what he meant but nodded yes.
Then, the trailer door came open and I saw the biggest dog I've ever seen. An impossible dog really, with oddly colored hair going from red to orange to brown.
The dog was vaguely frightening though it did nothing frightening. Clint came to the door and reached around me and closed it. Our arms were touching and hands. He kissed me and it was a deep, motionless connection.
Then, I asked what he meant by what he had said earlier.
He brusquely replied oh, that he had just meant we hadn't been friends because of timing, as if uncomfortable with the idea of romance with me.
My take on the dream so far:
Whenever I dream of celebrities, I have to ask what I feel about them, in general, not the characters they play (unless they show up in the dream as a character they have played, of course). I also must note that my interpretation also gets colored by my involvement in acting. Because I am a professional actress, Clint Eastwood represents a bit more to me than the non-actor, I assume.
So....I have always felt that Clint knew himself and his way of presenting himself to an exquisite degree and that's why he chose the roles he chose and why the worked so well for him. At the same time, they leave me unfulfilled because he's usually distant from himself in them. Hard to put into words....he gives a presentation of truth but he hides himself away behind it.
Because the dog was impossibly big, I realized that it held special significance, telling me that whatever it represented in my life was bigger than it should be. In my awareness, Dog medicine is about loyalty and service. I had to ask where I was being unloyal to myself and where I might not be noticing an opportunity to be of service as a spiritual being.
Update, July 10: Reading over this dream again, I am struck by my own intuition and the way I went down a well-established path of self-flagellation with it rather than seeing it true. My instincts were in the statement "whatever it represented was bigger than it should be". One of my biggest struggles has been needing to feel of service, and of value, all the time and never feeling I could just relax and be. Seeing this again after some time between the dream and me, I can see that the dog may have been telling me my concerns about being enough of service were bigger than they should be.
Clint had the feel of representing my male self in the dream, as opposed to any sense that his consciousness was actually there. I've had those types of dreams, where I felt the consciousness of the celebrity was with me, helping me, but this wasn't one of those.
Because Clint kissed me that deep, motionless way that usually means it is my male self connecting with me, and because he also helps me close the door against the vaguely threatening dog, I assume that my male self is not quite ready to deal with what the dog represents.
This also seems true because of his brusque change when asked what he had meant at the first of the dream.
Update, July 10: Even the fact that Clint "helps me close the door against the vaguely threatening dog" takes on new meaning now. Was I being told to ease up and let myself be ok?
So, I feel I've had an issue surface that will unfold in the future.
Also, one odd aside....the color of the dog reminded me of the Martha Stewart show I had watched the day before. On it, she was painting a lion's face on a cake and the colors she was using sort of matched the mane of the big dog in the dream but that's not the part of the show I remembered. I remembered earlier, when a man had come up holding a container that had toad frogs in it (I know that sounds like another weird dream but it was really on the show). He was on the show to educate people about the importance of protecting toads, which are different from frogs.
What bothered me about that segment is that he came in and started to talk and Martha made him stand there with that can in his hand for what seemed like 10 minutes while she made him listen to some track of thought she was in. It felt very awkward for him to just stand there. It felt controlling to me, the kind of nasty control that Martha Stewart was often accused of before her prison days.
So, if we look at Clint as my male self and the dog representing that aspect of Martha that I connected with when I looked at the dog in the dream, then here is my male and female in some sort of battle over awareness.
Very interesting dream.
The Dream:
I can't recall much at all but I'm in a mobile home with Clint Eastwood. He is telling me that we never got together because of timing. I wasn't sure what he meant but nodded yes.
Then, the trailer door came open and I saw the biggest dog I've ever seen. An impossible dog really, with oddly colored hair going from red to orange to brown.
The dog was vaguely frightening though it did nothing frightening. Clint came to the door and reached around me and closed it. Our arms were touching and hands. He kissed me and it was a deep, motionless connection.
Then, I asked what he meant by what he had said earlier.
He brusquely replied oh, that he had just meant we hadn't been friends because of timing, as if uncomfortable with the idea of romance with me.
My take on the dream so far:
Whenever I dream of celebrities, I have to ask what I feel about them, in general, not the characters they play (unless they show up in the dream as a character they have played, of course). I also must note that my interpretation also gets colored by my involvement in acting. Because I am a professional actress, Clint Eastwood represents a bit more to me than the non-actor, I assume.
So....I have always felt that Clint knew himself and his way of presenting himself to an exquisite degree and that's why he chose the roles he chose and why the worked so well for him. At the same time, they leave me unfulfilled because he's usually distant from himself in them. Hard to put into words....he gives a presentation of truth but he hides himself away behind it.
Because the dog was impossibly big, I realized that it held special significance, telling me that whatever it represented in my life was bigger than it should be. In my awareness, Dog medicine is about loyalty and service. I had to ask where I was being unloyal to myself and where I might not be noticing an opportunity to be of service as a spiritual being.
Update, July 10: Reading over this dream again, I am struck by my own intuition and the way I went down a well-established path of self-flagellation with it rather than seeing it true. My instincts were in the statement "whatever it represented was bigger than it should be". One of my biggest struggles has been needing to feel of service, and of value, all the time and never feeling I could just relax and be. Seeing this again after some time between the dream and me, I can see that the dog may have been telling me my concerns about being enough of service were bigger than they should be.
Clint had the feel of representing my male self in the dream, as opposed to any sense that his consciousness was actually there. I've had those types of dreams, where I felt the consciousness of the celebrity was with me, helping me, but this wasn't one of those.
Because Clint kissed me that deep, motionless way that usually means it is my male self connecting with me, and because he also helps me close the door against the vaguely threatening dog, I assume that my male self is not quite ready to deal with what the dog represents.
This also seems true because of his brusque change when asked what he had meant at the first of the dream.
Update, July 10: Even the fact that Clint "helps me close the door against the vaguely threatening dog" takes on new meaning now. Was I being told to ease up and let myself be ok?
So, I feel I've had an issue surface that will unfold in the future.
Also, one odd aside....the color of the dog reminded me of the Martha Stewart show I had watched the day before. On it, she was painting a lion's face on a cake and the colors she was using sort of matched the mane of the big dog in the dream but that's not the part of the show I remembered. I remembered earlier, when a man had come up holding a container that had toad frogs in it (I know that sounds like another weird dream but it was really on the show). He was on the show to educate people about the importance of protecting toads, which are different from frogs.
What bothered me about that segment is that he came in and started to talk and Martha made him stand there with that can in his hand for what seemed like 10 minutes while she made him listen to some track of thought she was in. It felt very awkward for him to just stand there. It felt controlling to me, the kind of nasty control that Martha Stewart was often accused of before her prison days.
So, if we look at Clint as my male self and the dog representing that aspect of Martha that I connected with when I looked at the dog in the dream, then here is my male and female in some sort of battle over awareness.
Very interesting dream.
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